It's 2:29 AM.

That was me at a party a few weeks ago.
I was really feelin' my outfit, so I needed everyone to know how fly I was.

Today I found out that I got a job in this program I was really hoping for.

It was a process to get in, but I'm here now and I plan to rock the shit out of this job.

I'm the only Black girl there.

I'm sleepy.

My face feels oily.

I feel a spontaneous poem forming.

Yeah...it stems from my heartburn.

My heart...burns.
Part of it is pizza.
The other part is lost love and
leftover lust that has yet to be properly treated.
I find my mind
After hours of searching
I find her wandering
Through my futures and my memories
And there you are.
She's with you.
In your arms and remembering
How that one night felt.
After sweat and passion and fighting back
the urge to whisper in your ear
Oh...my...God...
I love you...
That one night after sweating and passion and orgasmic memorizations of your presence
Those moments when
You held me and kissed me and just barely touched me and
Showed me
love
And the days yet to come
Where you and I begin the revolution
Side by side and
Locked in an embrace of love and passion and a coup d'etat to rock humanity
Back to sanity.
But alas, it is all in my mind
As I find her wandering
Through my futures and my memories
With pieces of my present in her hand.

And now, I am sad.

That girl in the picture (red shirt) is one of my good friends up here in Oshkosh, where I go to school.

Well...the one in the pink was too, but she quit last spring. This year has been strange w/o her.

Anyway...

We live in the same building, two doors away from each other.

She's my only friend up here at the moment, and now I'm without her.

She wants me to keep her friends warm for her until she comes back in the fall, but this shit is currently depressing. Especially since I love her friends so much. It's gonna be pretty hard to hang out w/ them without her.

Oh my.

I guess I'm done lamenting now.

I'll be back later to whine some more though.

Hell to the Naw.

So...

I called home today and shit.

It's dawned on me that there are some SUPER dizzy bitches in the world.

Like...

What the fuck.

Out of control.

15 years old and pregnant and shit.

I can't even verbalize right now.

Way too much going on.

In the morning...

In the morning...

Oh.

And I'm mad my best friend said this guy I have a) known all my life and
b) slept with in the past has slept with some UGLY ass hairy
lookin' Dominican broad.

That is some SHIT.

It's Been Awhile...

I haven't blogged in several months.
I know, I'm slipping.
But I'm back now so...yaaay!

I've shaved my head since the last time I was here, and actually that's about all
that has changed in my life. The semesters changed and the weather
got bad but...nothing else interesting has happened.

Men still don't know how to act and I still limit my company with other people so...yeah.

Oh!
Here's an interesting tidbit!
Today in class, I actually didn't fall asleep and shit.
And my professor actually commented on it.
He said "No dozing (insert government name here)!"
And I said, "I know! I didn't! But...I also had a huge energy drink and a nap today."
Then he said, "Well, if you didn't contribute so positively I'd be a lot harsher on you, but you always have positive input so it's OK."
I laughed, but in general it made me feel good today.

Yay me!

Maybe tomorrow will be mas interesante.